So i’ve learned …

Never give someone yer EVERYTHING cause when they leave you’ll have NOTHING . 

& to the top it all off ,

I miss yuu Kalvyn . :(

Junk feelings ever …

Kalvyn , i dont know what i did that made yuu not wanna talk to me anymore . I keep asking myself what i did & what can i do to make yuu come to me but unfortunately i cant do anything else , i cant force yuu to stay when yuu wanna leave . I know something happened that made yuu give up on me , & dont get me wrong i know its cause of yer friend . But shit happens & i hope one day you’ll realize that everything i told yuu was true. I believed every single words yuu told me , the shweet talks we had , the little arguments , the way yuu talk to me , the way yuu make me feel & yes it made me supper happy . It made me forget the pain but now im back to where i started .  

When yuu need someone to lean on , I was there ALWAYS ..

But when i needed someone to vent to , all yuu said was ” yup yup bye ” :( . Yuu told me you’ll love me forever ? I guess im the dumb one in the first place . I know i can live my life without yuu , i know ! I did it before & for shure i can do it again , its gonna take me some time , time to realize that yuu never did love me , time to get my life back together & when that happens ill be the happiest girl ever . Jacob , yuu hurt me big time & thanks to yuu cause now my life keeps getting worst .

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I just lost everything i wanted. hurteeen big fucken time . First , it was Jacob. He doesnt wanna talk to me at all , after all the things i did for him , all the sacrifices , the time , the love , the chances , he threw it all away and decided to like another girl . It hurts so so so so much :( . When i found out that he likes another girl , my heart sank . I keep telling myself to be strong but this morning , tears started coming down my cheek . I thought i moved on already , i thought he wont affect because after the mean words he told me theres no way i can love him all over again but like what they say ” if its still hurts then yuu still care ” . Jacob , i loved yuu with all my heart & yuu know that because there is no days i stopped showing it to you & telling yuu how much i love yuu but yuu chose not to care . & right now , i just dont know what to do anymore . Maybe , i still love you just a little bit . :((

Once its gone , you’ll never get it back .

I hope one day you’ll realize what yuu lost </3

6 things you should realize after a break-up:

superglenntot:

• Breaking up is either letting go of good one or kicking someone unworthy in your life.
• You lose a person because you deserve someone better.
• Love has its own reason, destiny has its own way, and karma has its own judgment..
• The one who cries the most is the one who loves the most.
• Time won’t heal the heartache but a new one will surely do.
• It’s the end of the relationship. NOT the end of your life.

I can do it without yuu …

To tell yuu the truth , I DONT LOVE YUU ANYMORE . I mean I REALLY DONT . I love the boy i met a year ago , the boy that made me smile & the boy that taught what love really is . I really dont love yuu anymore , i LOVE the feeling yuu gave me . I miss the way it used to be . Theres days when i totally forget about yuu but when it comes to days like this , i sit in my room thinking what the fuck happened to yuu & how did we end up like this . It felt like yesterday were so inlove with each other & now were strangers & worst is that yuu probably hate me cause i loved yuu to much . Well yuu know what , im moving the fuck on with this bullshit yuu put me through . Yeah boy , i cried to much for yuu & its time for me to grow up & realize things . 

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I just lost an amazing boy in my life, Kalvyn :(. First, it was Jacob and now Kalvyn. Why cant life be a little nicer to me ! I miss you Kalvyn, i miss yer crazy shweet talks that gives me butterflies, i miss our 24/7 conversation, i miss having the best day cause of yuu. Yuu taught me how to be strong when Jacob left me & because of yuu, i became a little stronger, a little wiser & now that yer gone my life is slowly falling apart :((. Please just come back :((((.